He/She Cheated on Me: What pains more the Betrayal or the Hurt?

Often in relationships they end in-- or encounter some form of "Betrayal or Hurts." In dealing with infidelity, lies and deceit we are often stuck trying to figure out what is bothering us most, sometimes its both--the betrayal and the pain. "How could the one person I trusted most, do this to me?" "What did I do wrong?" "Will I ever trust again?" All these and many more questions lurk through the minds of those who are betrayed. The pain and the disappointment of knowing the individual you look at , share a life with, and lay next to for times of comfort and joy could possible break your heart. Well, they do and they can. It happens everyday. It happens in 10 month relationships to 40 year marriages. But, what hurts the most-- Betrayal or Pain?

Betrayal- as defined means " To divulge in a breach of confidence, commit treason against." Treason! That's a deep word--but totally appropriate. When in love we give not only our hearts, but our souls, our very spirits-and they take them as a "given" and abuse all aspects of the relationship. To be betrayed by the person who knows you best, to look into your eyes, and profess to never allow anyone or anything to hurt you and then for them themselves to be that "anyone or anything," is a "gut punch" to say the least. "How could you?" Thats a question commonly asked but never answered. When I say never answered I mean this; the "cheater" will always offered up so excuse be it valid or not--the answer they cough up will never be good enough nor will the person who has been cheated on ever feel as if you've given them a good reason, so it is as if the "cheatee" is still being cheated because the "cheater" never answered the question of "How?" Betrayal is the worst form of heartbreak. It can often cause the "cheatee" to never, ever trust a person ever again. And, in the end the "cheater" has ruined someones life far beyond the initial damage.It's easy to do the wrong thing--its harder to do the right.

Hurt-"To cause mental or emotional suffering to; distress." The hurt is the one part of the experience the person will never get over. You can move on in the relationship via. forgiveness or you can enter into a relationship of new; but, the pain will always exist. You may think you are over the experience-but it will only take one nostalgic moment to bring you back to the pain and hurt experienced at the hands of that person. Hurt is not just emotional but mental. The "cheatee," will often play moments in their heads to try and figure out the "whens, wheres, and hows?" Was it the time I was sick and you rushed off to a so called "emergent meeting?" Perhaps when you told me the car had broke down and I was dressed and ready for our date to the movies. All these thoughts cause "hurts." Why would someone forsake the goodness of another person for moments of self gratification. More times than not, the person your mate cheated on you with has not and will never go the miles or the distance you have gone for this individual-which makes it hurt all the more. I've died in your Heart- So leave in their arms.

In the end...all of it hurts, there's no "especially," in matters of being deceived and played for a fool. Betrayal is one of the many words that describes thousands of emotions. A cheater doesn't care nor do they think about the damage they can--or have caused their partners life---until they are caught! Their apologies, sorries, "please don't leaves" would have never taken face, had it not been for the ultimate snag and that is "getting caught!" Although they know what they are doing is wrong and it could ruin their future in their relationships, it doesn't matter, they want what they want. And, they get what they deserve when the "cheatee" decides to walk off and leave their behinds--behind! Forgiveness is a personal choice- and I must admit it is a risky one. But, I sincerely applaud any person who can forgive and attempt to move forward for it takes a "special" kind of person to do so. There is never a good reason to lie, cheat nor deceive but if you'r ever caught on the losing end these verbs, remember its okay to cry, its okay to hurt, its okay to feel all the emotions of losing someone- because essentially you are burring the person they were and they have been resurrected into the person they are. You must grieve. But, after the rain- comes rainbows. No one deserves to be mislead or mistreated, and as you begin to heal-let go of the anger you feel against them. Instead direct it into love. Love for your life, love of your family, and complete love of yourself. Life has many chapters, some drama, some romance, some funny, some heartache, but they all are apart of the book that makes you, we are not all promised a "happily ever after," but we are for sure promised to have what we deserve, and you deserve better! - Trina B